Having a place to archive my thoughts –specifically those in which I put in writing — has been something that I have wanted to do for years, but unfortunately never did. It wasn’t that I lacked not the initiative to start one or the organization to maintain one, but rather the confidence to put myself out there. The thought of having my writings archived in one place that I would share to the internet ( and therefore the world), scared me. What if someone who I didn’t like would make fun of me for it? What if people judged me for “trying to be a blogger?” These thoughts, although mostly irrational, made it impossible for me to feel confident enough in my own personal musings to create something of this kind. I am hoping between the conjunction of this blog with my new website (which I designed all by myself on Adobe Muse which I am SUPER proud of myself because I am far from a computer tech person) will be a way for me not only to share my thoughts but also collaborate with other like minded individuals as I attempt to improve my writing in and improve myself.The thought of having my writings archived in one place that I would share with the internet (and therefore the world), scared me.
What if someone who I didn’t like made fun of me for it? What if people judged me for “trying to be a blogger?” What if my ideas aren’t important enough?
All of these thoughts (although mostly irrational) made it impossible to share many of my personal musings in a public arena. Although these thoughts are still present, they are no longer at the forefront of my mind and I am excited to finally take the plunge to write more openly and honestly. My hopes are that through my blog and website I will be able to chronicle and share my future ruminations, emotions, opinions and adventures!
Can’t wait to write more!